[ Kenapa?? Why?? ]

• low self esteem
• everything seems undone
• am i needed

[those 3 silly feelings keep circulating in my mind]

kdg2 i feels like myself ni selalu emotionally down.i dunno why.dis silly feelings ni laa yg wat end up dgn arguments,disagreements and some quarells between me ngn Mr.HC [on which sebenarnye benda2 bodoh jewr] kenape eyh? mayb i need guidance from sumone yg very familiar with this kind of person mcm i.

i am one of a kind yg sgt need attention when im alone.[ dis due to i am jobless kot,Mr.HC bz ngn keje,so sumtymes i feel neglected ]. i know it seems unfair kan kalo i ckp yg i've been neglected.sbbnye HC bkn sgj jer.He's bz working.[even i da taw his job scope pun kdg2 im confused np i still have those feelings]

kdg2 i jeles gak ngn mereka;

• ms.jibbitz and its newborn kids
• mr.cwocks
• ms.ayumi hamasaki

they are 24/7 dgn HC.huhuhu..kalo ckp kat HC,die akn ckp kat i;

"awkkk,jibbitz ngn cwocks tu kn hamster ajer,and ayumi hamasaki tu kn hanya motor ajer.xkan itu pun nk jeles??"

sedeyh kan...smpai i da tahap mcm tu taw..pdhal he did not left me deliberately.. this thing pun kdg2 jd punca perselisehan paham.

[but thank Allah cuz HC never seems to get bored dgn perangai mereng i neh,"thanx bb.=D"]